Things got worse

There is nothing in this world that is more devastating than death.
I consider myself to be lucky, in this respect, as I am still alive and have God to thank for that. I'm having a very hard time at the moment, though. My Grandma passed away on Tuesday.
Things are still a bit hazy, I suppose it hasn't quite sunk-in yet, etc. and I am worried that this sudden illness that has overwhelmed me over the passed couple of days has something to do with my worries. I'm finding it very hard to decide exactly what to do with myself at the moment.

More importantly, I've seen no tears being shed, or anybody appearing to be struck with grief, yet I am so uncontrollably upset... I just don't understand. I'm supposed to be at work right now, but I had to ring in because I was ill throughout the night. I just don't have any strength to be around anybody to receive condolences and best wishes for my future.
I don't have any grandparents, anymore. This is the end of an era. I feel sick.

Whether your A-level results were less than what you expected, or your current boyfriend/girlfriend has left you or you can't find anything decent to wear today, think, for a minute, how utterly ridiculous you're being and focus on the real love that is in your life because once it's taken away, you're on your own.

I probably won't blog for a short while, now. I'm still here, though.